Here’s the joke that’s going around. America the Land of Opportunity. Only in America, can a young black man grow up to be a white woman. Michael Jackson.
Now that he’s passed on, we – who witnessed the bizarre morphing of Michael Jackson from the chubby-cheeked, open-faced little cherub into the mysterious boy man whose facial features became a mosaic of Elizabeth Taylor, Diana Ross, and Kirk Douglas – have a few questions.
- Mainly, why did he do it? Why did he surgically alter his adorable face so radically until he looked like one of the ghoulishy-white monsters who danced with him in “Thriller”? Why did Michael Jackson destroy his natural good looks? Was he trying to rub out himself? Was it a form of self-hatred, self-mutilation? Some say he didn’t want to look anything like his savage father and that was his motivation.
- Michael was black yet look at his 3 kids. They’re white. We now know he’s not the biological father. So Michael was homosexual. He didn’t want to consummate marriages and become the biological father in that way. Couldn’t he have donated sperm? Or, as some suggest, was Michael incapable of that process? Had he taken hormone treatments or prescription drugs to such a degree as to render him incapable of producing enough sperm? If he wanted children, why didn’t he choose surrogate parents who were black? Why didn’t he want black children? Michael Jackson married two white women. He dated only white girls – Tatum O’Neal, Brooke Shields. He rejected black noses and skin. It’s laughable that black celebrities Jamie Foxx and Spike Lee, activists Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton are now, upon Michael’s death, claiming the King of Pop as one of their own, when Michael so long ago and so publicly rejected his Afro-American roots.
Have these very public figures – and alleged men of the cloth – forgotten the stain? Michael Jackson was twice investigated, in 1994 and 2005 for sexually assaulting young boys and was brought to trial. True, he was never found guilty but a settlement of $22 million can buy a lot of silence.
A lot of people who knew Michael Jackson know his secrets, but no one is talking negatively about him now that he’s gone. To hear them go on, he was St. Michael. From his bodybuilder to his best friend, all are mum about what was really going in Michael Jackson’s head and private life. We understand that he was not right, that he was a pedophile with warped ideas about how love is legally and morally expressed between adults and children. What we want to know is what caused this transformation from angel into devil? What changed Michael Jackson from the star we loved to the star many hated? Drug addiction plus mental illness? Childhood sexual trauma? Pressures only a superstar could feel? Perhaps all of the above?
We didn’t want Michael Jackson to become a mess; his music and dancing were so much fun. His energy on stage, in videos, on radio was electric, infectious.
We watched him grow into adulthood. We loved him from the first. Then we looked on in bewilderment as he began carving up his face and whitening his skin. Then he moved to Neverland as Peter Pan, set up an amusement park, and invited children to come and see him. Then we learned that he did unspeakable things with those children at Neverland, some of the little ones sick with cancer. Our beloved King of Pop had become somebody dark and revolting – a monster we couldn’t trust.
We are conflicted: we are sad Michael Jackson died. Is it okay we are mourning the death of a once-great entertainer who degenerated into a stranger who abused children and rejected his own race?
Us Weekly is running these photos today of Michael Jackson’s changing face. One must wonder if Michael’s father’s cruel remarks about his face caused Michael to want to completely alter his looks. Remember that Joe Jackson, besides beating the young Michael with belts and cords and knocking him and his brothers into walls because he wanted them to perform better, subjected Michael to verbal abuse, told his son repeatedly that he had a big nose and made fun of Michael’s skin condition as a teenager (adolescent acne). Michael said that sometimes, when his father walked into a room, he would be so afraid of him that he would vomit.
No doubt as a result of such belittling of his appearance, Michael Jackson, as he grew older, became obsessed with reducing the size of his nose. He further tinkered with his looks. He began making steady rounds to dermatologists to bleach out the black of his African-American skin until he became white. He annihilated his African skin and nose until no visible traces remained.
We were not allowed to see much of his skin so we don’t know how far he took the skin bleaching. As years went by, Michael took pains to keep us from seeing all of him, wearing long sleeves and pants, covering up almost every part of himself in the end, wearing masks, scarves, sunglasses, wigs, and hats, so that we couldn’t know how much plastic surgery and dermatology he had – or how dependent he had become on needle drugs and how badly his body looked beneath the flashy uniforms and spangled gloves.
While Michael Jackson changed his face, skin, and hair many times, his fixation on his nose was the most obvious – and the most disturbing. He kept having operations on it – operations that made it look worse. We watched in horror as it became smaller and more pinched, at times looking like it wasn’t even real anymore, just made of Silly Putty. He began to be followed by an umbrella man, whose sole job was to keep the sun off Michael’s face. Was Michael’s nose now so delicate as to melt off in the sun? Did he wear face masks to keep away the germs or to prevent us from seeing what late mutilation he’d subjected his poor nose to?
As the photos that follow will show, Michael Jackson was never satisfied with his nose, having more and more plastic surgery until the nose was whittled down to nothingness. Was it a greedy plastic surgeon who kept pushing Michael for yet one more nose surgery or was it Michael’s body dysmorphia that demanded more, more? After 20 years of surgeries, did Michael still look in the mirror and see a big nose? Was he suffering from a condition akin to anorexia like the 80 pound stick figure girl who looks in the mirror at her figure and still sees herself as a fat pig?
In an odd twist, Michael died with almost no nose left – Joe Jackson couldn’t call him “Big Nose” any longer – and 2 children parented by his skin doctor and nurse.
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